short story
women should be beaten
domestic violence
women are like men
destined for poverty
work and poverty
man away from poverty
dualistic paradigms
but be silent
living anima
one heroine's struggle
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"Like women all over the world, I had mastered the art of transforming myself into what I thought each man would fall in love with...[I was] very much in control of the mask I put on for each man, I tried on a dozen personas, played out a dozen roles...." - Rebecca Walker, Lusting for Freedom

Men, because of their unwillingness to deal with their inner feminine, project onto women their own anima-attempt to mold women in their own, inner image. Men have difficulty dealing with the whole woman - flesh woman, heart woman, soul woman. A woman whose face becomes puffy and blotchy from crying, a woman who screams primal when stress gets to her, a woman who gets excited and laughs hysterically or satirically while on the phone with her best friend. Men want to compartmentalize women as they do computers - that woman is the beautiful lusty whore for my sexual and sensual pleasure. This woman I will put on a pedestal because she is my wife and mother to my children....

While my boyfriend is sincerely respectful towards women and myself, I struggle with a similar dilemma. I am the first girlfriend he's had who is his best friend and confidant. He has difficulty being sexually intimate with me. Often I feel I am too much for him, a giant looming before him. It is as if he would prefer to cut out parts of me because I am too large for his scope. But I do not feel myself large. I am merely real, and slowly, becoming whole.

© 1990 - 2003 Katharina Woodworth

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